You Can’t Beat Me
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When Gu Hai hastily arrived at home, he found Bai Luo Yin in the process of tidying his belongings.
As Gu Hai watched him, he noticed that every strand of hair on his head was unscathed, but more importantly, his movements were not impeded. Gu Hai was temporarily relieved, but when he saw Bai Luo Yin shoving his clothes and toiletries into a suitcase, he panicked.
Gu Hai could no longer uphold a calm demeanor, “What are you doing?”
Not responding, Bai Luo Yin continued on, his back seemingly stiff.
Seeing that, Gu Hai strode over and roughly grabbed Bai Luo Yin’s arm.
He was petrified.
The corner of Bai Luo Yin’s eyes displayed an array of blacks and blues and the swelling made them appeared asymmetrical. The surface of his nose was swollen and even the ala was picked with speckles of purple. Several bloodstains tracked the nape of his neck, slithering downward before they were blocked off by the collar of his shirt. Gu Hai strained his eyes, but he couldn’t see the mishap beneath.
Those soldiers were indeed ruthless with their hands. But as luck would have it, Bai Luo Yin was not some lowly coward. Even though he had been beaten up, it was not to the extent as to how those soldiers had made it out to be—so exaggerated.
“Yin Zi…” Gu Hai called out, his voice holding a dense air of regret.
He wanted to undo the buttons on Bai Luo Yin’s jacket, but Bai Luo Yin forcefully held his hand down. The look in his eyes was strange and steep with stubbornness.
“Don’t put on that hypocritical face, it’s disgusting.”
Like a dagger, that sentence pierced straight into the center of Gu Hai’s heart. His fingers and vision started to blur and shake when Bai Luo Yin smacked his hand away.
Keeping his hand to his side, Gu Hai watched as Bai Luo Yin walked from one room to the next, and then returned to zip up his luggage. After that, he made his way to the front door to change his shoes.
Gu Hai was torn by conflicting thoughts as he took a huge stride over and stared intently at Bai Luo Yin. “Where do you want to go?”
“It doesn’t concern you where I go.”
“Do you want to return home?” Gu Hai continued asking in detail.
Bai Luo Yin, “I’m not returning home. I won’t do something that shameless.”
“Then, where do you want to go?”
Bai Luo Yin’s cold and stiff eyes stared straight into Gu Hai’s, “I repeat—it doesn’t concern you where I go.”
An ice blade seemed to run deep into Gu Hai’s heart, freezing it up completely as he blocked the doorway. “You want to go to her?”
Hearing those words, Bai Luo Yin had a strong urge to slap him in the face. He wanted to make this hypocritical and unreasonably barbaric guy, who relished in twisting the truth, wake up. Unfortunately, he was unable to raise his hands. He commented to himself, it’s unnecessary… it’ll only be a waste of time.
“That’s right, I’m going to her,” he simply said.
It only took seconds for Gu Hai’s heart to suffer grave damage… grief, indignation, unwillingness, anguish—all those emotions squeezed tightly in his chest.
“Did you tell her to come back?”
Bai Luo Yin nearly grabbed the luggage and swung it on the floor. But instead, he gritted his teeth and squeezed out, “Yes.”
“Did you also force her to stay?”
“Of course. There’s no need for you to ask me any more stupid questions. I’ll admit to everything now. Since I’ve been living here with you, I’ve called her every day. There’s not a moment when I’m not thinking of her or her well being. You don’t know how happy I was when you had those two soldiers follow us. Did you know I’ve been looking for an excuse to break off our relationship? You’ve been so fucking good to me. You know every damn thing in my heart, down to the minute detail. You found those soldiers to beat me until my head became clear. I can finally tell you now Gu Hai, that’s enough!”
Gu Hai remained expressionless at the door. All the emotions he once felt seemed to have faded with those words. There was no longer any warmth residing in him.
“Can I leave now?” Bai Luo Yin asked, his tone cold and uncaring.
Gu Hai’s rigid gaze shifted to Bai Luo Yin’s face.
“Is everything you said true?”
Bai Luo Yin’s mouth slightly parted before a broken smile settled on his face instead
“Whether what I’ve said is true or not, you still don’t know?”
Remaining silent, a gloomy air exuded from the depths of Gu Hai’s pupils.
“Get out of the way.”
Seeing that Gu Hai did not move, Bai Luo Yin firmly pushed him to the side and kicked the door open. Before long, his cold back gradually disappeared into the elevator.
The northern wind whistled by Bai Luo Yin once he was outside of the building. The cold air of the surrounding area mingled with the temperature of his body, creating a sorrowful and bitter feeling. There was a strange sensation settling in his heart—it was heavy and painful and although it was indescribable, he unconsciously knew that perhaps he was heartbroken.
In all his life, he had never felt such a thing toward anyone before: utter disappointment. He wished he could beat him to death but that wouldn’t purge the anger in his heart.
Why didn’t you believe me? You personally promised, but you couldn’t keep it.
Were my expectations of you too high?
Were you so good to me… so good that I couldn’t see any of your flaws? … so good that I believed every single word you said without any doubts.
So, when I uncovered your true innermost thoughts, it became unbearable just like now?
Since that happened, Bai Luo Yin did not attend class for three consecutive days. His excuse is that he was home reviewing, but in truth, he was hiding out at a hotel all along. Final exams were held on the fourth and fifth day, and Bai Luo Yin and Gu Hai were placed in different examination rooms. After their exams, neither Bai Luo Yin nor Gu Hai returned to the classroom. Having not seen each other since then, winter break started without a hitch.
Since the wounds on his face had not faded yet, Bai Luo Yin had yet to return home. He had no heart to return and intended to spend a few more peaceful days.
It didn’t take long for Bai Han Qi to call his son, but each time Bai Luo Yin would inform him that he was staying at Gu Hai’s place and would return home in a while. Without putting much thought into it, Bai Han Qi would only feel relieved, so he never questioned him again.
Finally, Shi Hui came to look for Gu Hai.
When the two met, Shi Hui’s first words were, “Can you tell me where Bai Luo Yin went?”
In the seven days that he and Bai Luo Yin did not see each other, Gu Hai’s heart was akin to a dry and desolate terrain. But with the utterance of that name, a huge gash finally tore open, allowing a flood of emotion to rush in.
“He’s not with you?”
Shi Hui forced a helpless smile, “It would’ve been good if he was with me, but I haven’t seen him for a week already.”
Hearing those words, Gu Hai wished he could confront himself and smack his own face. Shit, I still misunderstood him.
“Maybe he returned home.”
Shi Hui shook her head, “He didn’t. I went to his house and his dad said he was with you.”
The expression on Gu Hai’s face tightened as he got up to leave.
“It’s okay, nothing will happen to him. He’s a really intelligent person,” Shi Hui said weakly.
“Since he’s not here, is it still necessary for us to talk?”
She looked over at him and smiled, “Of course, I wasn’t looking for you only because of that.”
Maybe it has something to do with Bai Luo Yin, Gu Hai thought to himself and sat back down. He definitely could not let the chance slip by if she knew something.
Shi Hui glanced at Gu Hai’s eyes only to see the bitter coldness that lied inside. It was rare for her to see that kind of expression on anyone’s face—much less that of a guy. For someone like her, even if it’s a strange guy who sat in front of her, he wouldn’t be so cold and aloof.
“It seems you don’t like me?”
Gu Hai replied in an insouciant manner, “I can’t say I dislike you, but I can’t say I like you either. I just don’t have any feelings toward you.”
“I will work hard to make you like me,” Shi Hui said with a smile.
Gu Hai grunted, then coldly retorted, “Just get to the point.”
Looking at him, her big clever eyes were packed with a thick layer of helplessness. “I wanted to ask you to help me persuade Bai Luo Yin to reconcile with me.”
An air of derisiveness hovered at the corner of Gu Hai’s eyes. Did you come looking for me to persuade Bai Luo Yin to reconcile with you again? Yeah right, you’re going to fall head first today!
Shi Hui’s pupil shook, “Why?”
“He doesn’t like you anymore.”
As far as Shi Hui was concerned, those words spoken by someone close to Bai Luo Yin were almost the same as personally hearing Bai Luo Yin himself admit it. Perhaps, since Bai Luo Yin was the kind of person who always looked at things from different aspects, what he said might contradict the truth in his heart. But Shi Hui was honestly incapable of understanding what motive would ‘this friend’ of his have to deceive her.
With a dark and gloomy complexion, Shi Hui bit the corner of her lips.
“Then… can you tell me, does he has someone he likes now?”
Gu Hai answered with an unusual sense of determination, “He does.”
Shi Hui’s complexion became even more unsightly, “Then, can you tell me who she is?”
“He is sitting right in front of you.”
Hearing that, Shi Hui nervously looked around the room with confusion while Gu Hai tapped the surface of the table with his finger.
“Don’t bother looking, it’s me.”
Shi Hui looked as though she had been struck by lightning—her entire body trembled as she looked at Gu Hai in disbelief. Bai Luo Yin likes a guy? How can that be?! Although one can see many of those kinds of people abroad, as far as Shi Hui was concerned it wasn’t considered an explosive or shocking new. But discovering that about Bai Luo Yin was not something Shi Hui was willing to accept no matter what.
“You… are you teasing me for fun?”
Gu Hai apathetically played with the lighter in his hand while the contour of his robust face exposed a domineering manner. “Do you think I am?”
Shi Hui’s heart immediately froze—even her hidden foot trembled involuntarily as she suddenly recalled several events. She recalled the time she gave Bai Luo Yin a call, only to hear a guy answer and say that he was Bai Luo Yin’s boyfriend. At that time, she didn’t take care of it, but now she realized how familiar Gu Hai’s voice sounded. And also, the first time she came to look for Bai Luo Yin, Gu Hai insisted on going with them. Then, when her and Bai Luo Yin were at the café chatting, those two unpleasant soldiers…
“Is there anything else you want to say?” Gu Hai looked at Shi Hui.
Shi Hui’s once gentle eyes suddenly hardened, her voice carried an unyielding determination.
“Did he accept you?”
Gu Hai heartlessly retaliated, “If he hadn’t accepted me, would I be here saying these words to you?”
“Then why did he suddenly disappear?”
“That’s our business. It has nothing to do with you.”
Shi Hui didn’t know how she came to possess such confidence, but a smile with traces of coldness unexpectedly emerged on her face.
“Bai Luo Yin does not like you. The reason why he had those abnormal feelings toward you was that I left. His heart felt empty so he anxiously found someone to fill it. Since I am back, he no longer needs you. You will soon come to find out that the only person he has ever like all along was me.”
“Your imagination is very rich,” Gu Hai said, while his expression did not change at all.
Shi Hui laughed, “Imagination or not, it’s still the truth. Bai Luo Yin is a very rational person with his own principle—and within those principles, fooling around is fine, but he will never truly accept a guy.”
Gu Hai laughed faintly, “Pretty girl, I’ve underestimated your mental capacity.”
Shi Hui grabbed her bag, stood up and walked to Gu Hai’s side, before slightly parting her soft and rosy lips.
“You can’t beat me.”