Let’s all Calm Down
In the early morning of the next day, Shi Hui was still asleep while Bai Luo Yin patiently endured the insufferable night. As he thought about everything that had happened, the need for food quickly shot through his mind, causing him to drag his feet to the ground. He wanted to get some breakfast first before returning to wake Shi Hui up.
But as Bai Luo Yin pushed the door open, he almost lost his breath—his eyes widened in shock and his face became deathly pale.
Cigarette stubs covered the floor along with the lone figure of someone crouching against the corner of the wall. It did not take much to see that the person had been awake the entire night.
It was a relatively bluish-green shade of colored that overtook Gu Hai’s usual complexion. His face was unshaven with a faint shadow that emphasized the sickly touch of restlessness. When he heard the door cracked open, he looked up and saw the face that he longed for. He unhurriedly stood up in front of Bai Luo Yin and blinked a few times in an attempt to shake away the tiredness away but even then, his obsidians eyes were lifeless.
Bai Luo Yin slowly nodded with an expressionless face that seemed to hide his current emotions.
Seven days had passed by without seeing each other.
Although Gu Hai had not taken the initiative to contact Bai Luo Yin, the painful agony of missing him had long penetrated every organ in his body. So, the instant his eyes fell on Bai Luo Yin, all reasons and misgivings swiftly dispersed, and whether or not he was forgiven him no longer mattered. All Gu Hai could think of was the pain of not being able to hold that person. With that in mind, he took one large step forward and pulled Bai Luo Yin into a tight hug.
“Come back home.” Gu Hai said, his voice was warm and full of sincerity.
Hearing those three words, Bai Luo Yin did not respond and instead remained still. His body suddenly felt as if it was being pelted by a storm of hail, causing him to completely freeze up. The ice-cold sensation numbed his senses a hundredfold more than Gu Hai’s who was outside the whole night.
“I’m going to gather your things for you.”
Suddenly, Bai Luo Yin reached his arm out to quickly block Gu Hai from the door.
Wearing a gentle smile, Gu Hai pinched Bai Luo Yin and began to coax him.
“Are you still angry? Can’t you offer me a smile after seeing me crouch here all night?”
Only repeating that name in his head, Bai Luo Yin could not think of anything else. But a second later, he felt a type of emptiness devour him just to stripe away all his emotions.
Looking at the troubling expression on Bai Luo Yin’s face, Gu Hai could sense that something was amiss. However, he did not question it, believing that Bai Luo Yin’s wrath toward him had yet to subside. That was until an indistinct sound traveled from with the room and crashed into his ears.
“Bai Luo Yin.”
Having finally woke up, Shi Hui’s head rose from the pillow when she detected that Bai Luo Yin was not beside her. Then noticing that the door was slightly ajar, she couldn’t help but call out.
In that instant, all the color on Gu Hai’s face was depleted as his eyes widened and his lips parted. There was a hint of fear and unprecedented anger unloading in his mind—it seemed his heart could rupture and wither at any second. He turned his deathly pallor face over and let his eyes flitted to Bai Luo Yin for a second before he kicked the front door open.
Hearing the suddenly loud thud, Shi Hui sat on the bed and forcefully yanked the blanket to cover her chest but surprising a huge portion of her back, shoulders and arms were still exposed. She was aware of another person on the other side of the door to the bedroom, a stranger perhaps.
It didn’t take long for Gu Hai’s detached eyes to shift from the bedroom to Bai Luo Yin.
The quietness that settled heavily in the room was of such a magnitude that anyone who walked into it would tremble with utter fear.
After a long while, Gu Hai faintly spoke, “Honestly, I found your exact location around midnight. When I got here, the lights were already turned off but since I was afraid of disturbing your sleeping, I decided to crouch here to wait for you instead.”
When Bai Luo Yin finally spoke, the sound of his voice was low and broken.
“Then why…why didn’t you ring the doorbell?”
“I was afraid it would disturb your sleep.”
“Then, why didn’t you leave and waited until later?”
“I was afraid that if I came back in the morning, you would have left already.”
Bai Luo Yin remained quiet.
Without saying another word, Gu Hai turned around and started to walk away.
Seeing that, Bai Luo Yin abruptly strode forward and chased after Gu Hai without hesitation. His hands quickly latched onto Gu Hai’s arm too tightly secured them.
Gu Hai tried to calm down his racing heart before he ultimately turned around—although it looked like he was unflustered, the gloomy and sinister air shrouding him dispelled that notion.
“Bai Luo Yin, I advise you. This time, you have to let me go because I don’t want to curse at you or hit you. If you don’t want me to suffer any longer, then please let your hands go.”
As Bai Luo Yin reluctantly released Gu Hai’s hand, an excruciating pain successfully penetrated his heart and severed all his hope, leaving him hollow and dead inside.
Shi Hui was fully dressed and was sitting at the edge of the bed waiting for Bai Luo Yin when he walked in. Unable to see the expression on his face, she couldn’t help but question: “Was the person just now, Gu Hai?”
Bai Luo Yin simply nodded and carried his luggage out of the room—Shi Hui quietly followed behind him closely.
Seeing that Bai Luo Yin was in a decidedly foul mood, she knew without a doubt that the reason was Gu Hai. And as for what had happened, Shi Hui can slightly guess.
Once they walked out of the hotel, Bai Luo Yin looked at Shi Hui and said, “Call a taxi and go back home.”
“I want to stay with you a bit longer,” Shi Hui said while looking to see if Bai Luo Yin objected.
He did not.
To say it more accurately, it didn’t matter to him whether or not Shi Hui was beside him.
Detecting no response, Shi Hui took his silence as a tacit agreement of her request and continued to happily stay beside him.
After walking for a long while with neither voicing anything, Shi Hui began to speak for the sake of breaking down the awkward feeling. “Does Gu Hai not like me?”
Bai Luo Yin murmured back, “No, it’s not you. He just doesn’t like me, that’s all.”
Shi Hui sighed, “I honestly don’t know how things are between the two of you, but I do think you should forgive each other a bit. That way, any misunderstanding can be resolved. Also, you’re too withdrawn and tend to always suppress all your feelings and keep your problems to yourself. If you can open up your heart a bit, I think you will gain much more than what you have now.”
In truth, Bai Luo Yin did not hear a word Shi Hui had said. His heart was utterly phlegmatic—so much so that he could only hear the subtle and minute sounds around him.
He suddenly turned only to see two grassy figures disappeared into the end of the street.
“What’s wrong?” Shi Hui asked.
Bai Luo Yin faintly replied, “Nothing.”
They walked until they reached the alleyway yet the strange footsteps still lingered in his ears.
Shi Hui smiled and said, “I’m heading home now, you rest up.”
Bai Luo Yin raised his hand and flagged down a taxi for her.
“When you get back, don’t forget to take some medicine,” Bai Luo Yin instructed.
Shi Hui nodded, “I’ll come and look for you early in the morning.”
Even now, Bai Luo Yin did not hear what Shu Hui had said. Once the taxi left, his eyes wandered back and forth at his surroundings. He could no longer see those two suspicious shadows from before which made him thought, shit… since I haven’t slept all night, it’s making me hallucinate.
He continued to ponder as he went into the alleyway all the way toward the door of his house.
The next day, an incident occurred.
Shi Hui was afraid that Bai Luo Yin had forgotten their arrangement so she messaged him as a reminder, however, he did not see that particular message.
His tired and worn out spirit, along with the event of last night had exhausted that he quickly passed out. He slept soundly until the early morning of the next day when a call came through.
From the other end of the phone, he could only hear noises and several voices jumbled together. Bai Luo Yin can almost make out Shi Hui’s voice, however, it was very vague. He called into the phone, but there were replies. He had even guessed that Shi Hui might have unintentionally pressed the call button, but his guess was destroyed when he heard the explosive voice of a man cursing about. Afterward, the person immediately hung up.
Bai Luo Yin jerked and sobered up. He swiped through the messages in his phone and discovered that the last message Shi Hui had sent him was at 7:00 AM.
It read: I’m already at the alleyway of your house, come out.
He swiped through his previous messages again and saw that last night Shi Hui had also sent him another message, reminding him that she would come by early in the morning.
Bai Luo Yin looked at his watch, it was already 7:30 AM.
He dialed Shi Hui’s number once more, but it did not go through.
Suddenly, he remembered those two sneaky shadows that followed behind him yesterday.
He quickly put on his clothes and flew out the door without washing his face.
Since the morning’s fog was very thick that within the span of three meters, he could not make out a single shadow. He went from one alleyway to the next, unable to find Shi Hui’s figure which ultimately him a bit flustered before he screamed into the open space. Nothing. A cold chill sprouted in his heart. His steps hastened as he searched in every nook until he finally heard a faint scream.
As he followed the voice, he caught sight of three figures not too far ahead and the scene before him caused all the blood in his body to rise.
Shi Hui was pushed against the corner of a wall; her hair was disheveled and her clothes were torn to the point that only a few pieces remained in tack. Two masked men, dressed in black clothing were practically up on her as they hurled insults and threats while carrying out obscene behaviors toward her. Shi Hui struggled for a bit, but then one of the masked men kicked her in the stomach.
Bai Luo Yin charged forward and crazily wrestled the two down. During the scuffle, Bai Luo Yin noticed that these two men barely laid their hands on him. Their target was Shi Hui. Even when he kicked them, the two just silently endured it and their cruel hands stretched out toward Shi Hui instead.
Bai Luo Yin captured one of the man’s wrist with the intention of kicking him in the crotch but, as a result of the struggle, the cuff of the man’s sleeve tore apart, exposing was a grass green shirt.
Thinking how no one would wear this type of green colored shirt with such a texture besides a military’s personnel, Bai Luo Yin suddenly remembered the look that Gu Hai gave him before he left.
If I, Gu Hai, were to be heartless, you will be terrified for the rest of your life.
Perhaps, what the eyes perceived were not necessarily the truth.
Gu Hai pondered for the whole night. Besides this pretense, no other reasons should have caused him to endure everything for an entire twenty-four hours. He realized that rather than being suspicious and struggle with the fear of being betrayed, it would be better to choose to trust even if he had to pretend to be naïve.
Shi Hui was the only person lying on the bed while Bai Luo Yin was fully clothed. Perhaps, this girl was taking advantage of the situation. She knew that he would eventually find out Bai Luo Yin’s location and go there, so she intentionally fabricated the scene. And perhaps, Bai Luo Yin had not laid on that bed at all.
… even though, there were two pillows arranged on the bed… even though it was evident that Bai Luo Yin’s head had left an impression on it…
But he cannot think like this. If he did, he would lose. He can never allow this kind of outcome to emerge!
As a result, Gu Hai decided that it was best to go and find Bai Luo Yin with the mindset of wanting to say everything and let it all be out in the open. He cannot give that girl even the tiniest opportunity. She does not deserve Bai Luo Yin. And also… he would hate to let it end like this.
With that, the will to fight reignited in his soul.
Gu Hai went into the bathroom to wash his face but when he faintly heard the sound of the doorbell, he quickly wiped his face with his hand and went to open the door.
The person standing on the other side of the door was Bai Luo Yin.
At that moment, it was happiness that welled up in Gu Hai’s heart. He thought that if Bai Luo Yin was willing to initiate an explanation, he would not have to put up such a brazenly defiant face.
“Who said you can come back?” He asked with a joking tone.
It was as if nothing had happened.
His expression was completely different from yesterday.
When he stood outside of the door, Bai Luo Yin originally had wanted to clear things out with Gu Hai in order to absolve the misunderstandings. But for him, Gu Hai’s current mood made it too obvious. So obvious… that he could not find any reasons at all to side with him.
“Those were your people right?”
Gu Hai was baffled, “What people?”
Suddenly, Bai Luo Yin strode into the room and violently slammed Gu Hai against the wall and let his cruel and heartless gaze collided with Gu Hai’s.
“Were they the men you found to follow us? You had those people violate Shi Hui?”
Gu Hai also flared up, “When did I find people to violate her?”
Bai Luo Yin’s face was expressionless, “Gu Hai, you’re too cruel.”
As if being awakened, Gu Hai abruptly came to a realization. Everything was clear now, so clear, that it poured down on him hard. It was then that Gu Hai understood what Shi Hui meant.
You can’t beat me.
“Gu Hai, you really aren’t a normal person. You’ve really made me look at you in a new light.”
Gu Hai’s hand sank into Bai Luo Yin’s neck as he quietly questioned: “You think I did it?”
Bai Luo Yin’s eyes did not focus on anything.
“I asked you, do you think I did it?” Gu Hai bellowed in anger.
When Bai Luo Yin did not respond, Gu Hai angrily tightened his hold on Bai Luo Yin’s neck until his face became purple and his breaths became sporadic.
But that pair of dark eyes still remained unshaken.
Seeing that, Gu Hai knew the answer and his heart was instantly overtaken by a chilly and lonesome emptiness.
“You came looking for me to take revenge? Then you better strike fast before it’s too late. Take advantage of the fact that I’m still reluctant to fight back. Direct that bit of grievances that she received back at me.”
Bai Luo Yin stood his ground.
“You don’t value this opportunity? Then let me tell you right now. After today, you, Bai Luo Yin are just like any other person on the street. You want to hit, curse me, those will all be a fantasy. Before, I let you do whatever you want not because I was a weak coward, but it was because I love you. Now, I have realized that you… are not worth it.”
“Get the fuck out,” Gu Hai said indifferently.
Bai Luo Yin stiffened legs shifted toward the door as every step he took strummed in Gu Hai’s ears, making the invisible string in his heart tighten that much more.
“Bai Luo Yin, you remember this. I was the one who let you leave. From this day on, there’s nothing between us! When you’ve come to realize the truth… even if you were to cry and kneel on the ground and beg me… I, Gu Hai, won’t give you single a glance!”