Addicted: Chapter 127

All Hope is Gone

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From the second to the fifth day of the first lunar month, Jiang Yuan busied herself with visiting families and friends. Hence, preparations for Bai Luo Yin to go abroad was temporarily placed to the side. On the sixth day, she finally found some free time to relax her mind after much difficulty. But as she leisurely strolled around the street, she bumped into one of her old classmates who had just returned from abroad. Within just minutes of chatting, she was unable to refuse it when her friend enthusiastically invited her out to continue their chat. Being the energetic person that she was, she warmly complied and accompanied her friend for dinner.

As she listened to her old friend account on how great life was abroad, Jiang Yuan was thoroughly convinced of her current endeavor. This had not only confirmed her conviction but also strengthened and made her even more determined to follow through with everything. There was no other choice in her mind, she must send Bai Luo Yin abroad. Once he has settled down over there, it was only natural that she will go and stay with her son in her elderly years.

Jiang Yuan painted an extraordinarily beautiful and meticulous illusion with her imagination. She never once thought that it was a strenuous task to accomplish. Her belief is that there is nothing that she cannot attain if she set her mind on it. Just take for example when she decided to sever her relationship with Bai Han Qi and planned to marry a rich and powerful man. Everyone around her had thought that she was delusional, practically crazy and that it was just her own wishful thinking. But, in the end, reality favored her.

No women are born under an unlucky star and have to endure hardship. There are only women who do not seek or have the ambition to progress.

This is what Jiang Yuan often told herself.

It was already dark outside when she arrived at the villa in the military base. Jiang Yuan quickly made food and waited. Just as Gu Wei Ting and Gu Hai took their seats at the table, Jiang Yuan picked up her bags and made her way toward the front door to change her shoes. While she was changing her shoes, she said: “I have some matters to handle, you two take your time eating.”

Gu Wei Ting remained unperturbed as he glanced at Jiang Yuan. “Where do you want to go this late at night?”

“I want to take care of the matter regarding Luo Yin’s going abroad. I have to go and take a look now.”

“That fast?” Gu Wei Ting narrowed his eyes at her.

Jiang Yuan smiled, “Fast? I have been complaining that it’s too slow.”

“Why don’t you just go tomorrow? How do you know if the person will be available to see you or not this late?”

“I’m afraid something else will come up tomorrow and this matter will be delayed even longer. Don’t worry, I already made an appointment in advance.”

Jiang Yuan had already put on her shoes and was about to open the door when Gu Wei Ting spoke again. “You could have just hired someone to handle these things for you.”

“I would still have to go and take a look myself, otherwise, I won’t be at ease.”

Afterward, she bid farewell to Gu Wei Ting and Gu Hai and happily made her way out the door.

In reality, she had yet to make any contacts with Bai Han Qi and to make matters worse, she hasn’t heard of any new information from Bai Luo Yin either. But in Jiang Yuan’s mind, those were only minute details. When everything was fully prepared, there will be more than enough time for her to deal with those two.

On this day, Gu Hai sat in his mother’s room the entire night.

Bai Han Qi had woken up extremely early in the morning. He pushed opened the door to Bai Luo Yin’s bedroom and said: “I have to go to Tong Tian’s older aunt’s place today. Lunch is already made. It’s in the cabinet in the kitchen so just heat it up in the afternoon and eat it.”

After he finished, he headed out with Aunt Zou and Meng Tian Tong with big and small packages of gifts in their hands.

It was already the seventh day of the first lunar month as Bai Luo Yin picked up his cellphone and saw another text message from Shi Hui. He didn’t even bother to look at the message and replied with: “I want to meet with you today.”

A few seconds later, Shi Hui responded. “When?”

Bai Luo Yin had already gone into the bathroom by that time.

He faced the mirror and brushed his teeth. Every time he looked up, he could clearly see the school uniform hanging neatly behind him in the mirror.

On the night of the thirtieth, before the Lunar New Year, Bai Luo Yin had gone to Gu Hai’s place knowing well that he would not be there. In truth, he did not have anything in mind since he only wanted to have another look around since it was once half his home, his second home after all.  

Everything inside was the same as when he had left except for the wardrobe in the bathroom that was open, and on the floor next to his feet, was a school uniform jacket that had been evidently trampled on. The dirt and wrinkles on it were proof that it had suffered.

Bai Luo Yin had only picked it up, took it home, and washed it.

Even now, it has yet to dry up completely.

As Bai Luo Yin began to wash his face, his skin started to tingle and he could sense that someone had opened the door. However, the foam on his face stopped him from opening his eyes so he quickly hurried up and splash some water to wash it off.

Suddenly, a very powerful force grasped the back of his head and pressed it directly into the water that filled the sink, causing him to choke several times. By the time his head was pulled out of the water, he was met with darkness.

His eyes had been blindfolded.

The sequence of the event that happened afterward was exactly the same as the first time that he was kidnapped and taken to Gu Hai’s place. This time, however, the person himself was enacting this act.

Soon, a familiar scent wafted passed Bai Luo Yin’s nose. When he was taken into the car and placed down, he faced the person and repeatedly asked: “Is it Gu Hai?”  

The person beside him did not respond and as he drove his face remained cold and detached.

“Speak up!” Bai Luo Yin shouted in a stiff yet harsh tone.

If it was really Gu Hai, Bai Luo Yin felt that this was absolutely unnecessary and he could simply talk to him in a calm manner, but he was afraid that it was not Gu Hai.

“Are you Gu Hai or not?”

“Gu Hai, is it you?”

Bai Luo Yin asked the question repeatedly and each time he asked, the urgency in his tone increased.

Several times after Gu Hai heard his name being called, he glanced at Bai Luo Yin only to see his expression which made him want to respond. But, in the end, he held back his tongue and kept silent.

Bai Luo Yin was thrown onto the person’s shoulder and carried upstairs.

At that moment, there were no doubts in Bai Luo Yin’s mind who the person was. However, it was because this person was Gu Hai that a wave of fear formed in the pit of Bai Luo Yin’s stomach.

Due to the warm temperature of the room, he started to sweat within minutes of entering. Then one by one, his clothes were taken off, some were just completely torn apart; even the sweat did not stop the chill from overtaking his body.

His pant was torn off. His underwear was torn off.

Bai Luo Yin finally spoke, “Gu Hai, I know it’s you. You don’t have to be like this!”

Gu Hai didn’t hear anything. Not a word entered his ears as he pulled out his own member and stroked until it enlarged, becoming hot and thick as though it could conquer anything.

Then he forcefully pressed down on Bai Luo Yin’s upper body and raised his waist up.

“Gu Hai, I’m telling you… mmmm…”

Gu Hai stuffed a towel into Bai Luo Yin’s mouth and then removed his blindfold so that he can clearly see everything that followed.

Without any lubricate, foreplay or even a warning, he thrust in brutally.

In just a second, the extreme pain and anguish circulated at full force throughout Bai Luo Yin’s body. Then as if he was being torn apart from the sudden attack, he spasmed.  

Since he had handcuffed both of his hands to the back of his body, Gu Hai could see the veins protruding from the back of Bai Luo Yin’s hands. Every vein tightened like knots and cried out in unison—pain.

Pain, yes. Today I want you to feel the pain and make you remember it for the rest of your life.

Gu Hai moved without any hesitations—after every thrust, after every withdrawal, all he could see was red.

Before they left, he had stolen Bai Luo Yin’s cellphone and was now replying to Shi Hui’s message. He sent her an address and then instructed her to arrive within ten minutes.

Although Gu Hai slowed down, the intensity did not lessen.

It hurts… it hurts…

The pain ripped apart his internal organs.

It was so painful that the loud sound of Bai Luo Yin’s teeth grinding together floated throughout the room.

It was so painful that both his legs trembled uncontrollably.

It was so painful that his head became dizzy.

Since he was young, he had endured many hardships and sustained many wounds. But those were like feathers falling on him compared to what he felt now.

Gu Hai struggled with having powerful physical arousals and guilt that arose in his heart.

He felt as though he had reached heaven in one moment and then kicked down to hell in the next moment. The taste was both pleasurable and extremely uncomfortable.

As Bai Luo Yin’s back submerged in a layer of cold sweat, Gu Hai could faintly hear Bai Luo Yin say, ‘it hurts’ even as he bit down on the towel.

He gently wiped the sweats off of Bai Luo Yin’s forehead and whispered: “Baobei, it won’t hurt in a bit.”

Not soon after he finished saying those words, he suddenly thrust with full force making it so that the gap separating him and Bai Luo Yin was no longer there—they were completely connected together with not even a mere centimeter to intrude on them.

Bai Luo Yin felt like his intestines were about to explode as Gu Hai started to speed up. His member that was about the same thickness as his wrist charged wildly, tussling deep inside of Bai Luo Yin.

Soon, Bai Luo Yin could feel his head spinning.

It’s so fucking painful.

It was so painful that every vein in his entire body tightened like a rope, his expression twisted into different directions and he wishes he could beat himself to death with a stick.


Finally, a scream interrupted Gu Hai’s movements.

Someone had been at the doorway for almost three minutes, shaking violently.

She had witnessed many horrifying scenes before but nothing… nothing had struck more terror and consumed her with fear than the one before her eyes now. Those horrible scenes before were merely attacks on her visual sensations, but this was purely on a psychological level—completely destroying her willpower.

Shi Hui retreated with the intention of running but she was stuck between two men.

“Bring her in!”

Shi Hui cried, screamed and struggled as she was forced into the room.

Gu Hai smiled cruelly as an air of coldness sank deep into his expression. “Take a good look, pretty girl.”

Shi Hui continued to struggle and squirm as she cried out, “No… I don’t want to…”

Hearing that, Gu Hai started to move right in front of Shi Hui. He violently and fiercely… devoured and conquered the person that she loves.

“Do you see it? He is mine. Me, Gu Hai’s alone!”

When the towel stuffed in Bai Luo Yin’s mouth was taken out, but he did not struggle or yell. He gritted his teeth, refusing to make any sound as sweat rolled down the side of his face when he turned away to the other side.

Gu Hai turned Bai Luo Yin’s head back again.

The scene that followed afterward became a nightmare that etched itself into Shu Hui’s skin for the next few years to come. Every single time she thought of it, she would break out in cold sweats.

Afterward, she was carried away by one of the men. Her face was now just a ghastly color with no hint of blood and her eyes had lost all focus as continued to shake. She was left abandoned in an alley until a man found her and took her to the hospital.

Gu Hai thrust in a wild stupor before he abruptly pulled out, stroked his member a bit and ejaculated.

Bai Luo Yin simply laid on the bed motionless.

After a long while, Gu Hai opened his mouth—all the fierceness that had consumed him had dispersed, leaving behind only pain and remorse.

“I know that you will hate me for the rest of your life for what I did.”

“But… I would rather let you hate me… I still have to do it. That girl doesn’t have any good intention, she is too manipulative. You can’t be with her… I have to wipe her out no matter what. If I don’t, she won’t give up that easily. I can’t just stand here and watch as she destroys you! I would rather you hurt and suffer this one time than let you regret it years later.”

“I know… we are over now. I, Gu Hai, don’t have any more unreasonable request. You just can’t be with her but if you choose to be with someone else, I will never interfere.”

When Gu Hai slowly released the handcuffs on Bai Luo Yin’s wrist, his eyes became red when he saw the trail of blood that remained.

“Bai Luo Yin, I, Gu Hai, can shed tears for you. I admit that I am a bastard in front of you! I never kept my words. I told you that I trust you, but I ordered people to keep an eye you. I told you I wanted to break off our relationship, but I kidnapped and brought you here instead. I said I respect you, but I raped you… I’m not human! But, I really truly love you.”

Bai Luo Yin did not respond or turn his head away again.

“Bai Luo Yin have you ever thought about me at all after such a long time?”


Gu Hai’s trembling hands caressed Bai Luo Yin’s hair. “Just now, did it hurt you really badly?”

Neither of Bai Luo Yin’s eyelids moved even the slightest.

Gu Hai suddenly froze in place before he straightened out Bai Luo Yin’s body only to realize that there were no responses from the body in front of him.

He held Bai Luo Yin’s face in between his hands and called out to him. “Yin Zi, Yin Zi, wake up.”

No matter how many times he tried to keep Bai Luo Yin’s head up, it simply hung down.

Gu Hai roared out in a fit of rage, “Hurry up and bring a doctor over here!!”

It was then that the other two men there understood what had happened and immediately retreated out of the door.

Without wasting any more time, Gu Hai wrapped a thick blanket around Bai Luo Yin’s body and firmly secured him against his chest—pain and devastation engulfed his heart. 

17 thoughts on “Addicted: Chapter 127

  1. What??
    I’m so confused as to how this happened wtf is know one else completely like what the fuck????

    This just turned into the craziest story

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  2. No one who loves somebody else would do that to them. Not only the rape but the humiliation in front of other people. Gu Hai doesn’t love him, he just want to own him.
    What is it with Chinese BL stories that equates pathological possession and rape to love??? Can’t they write one BL story where the guy doesn’t rape the one he supposedly love? WTF. And the weirdest thing is that they make the victim just forgive afterwards.


    1. I agree with you; this happens too many times in Chinese BL which does turns me away. I prefer if BLY was mad for a long long period of time but it didn’t happen.


    2. If you want that squishy squishy thing then there many of those out there. This novel has already included ‘rape’ in the tags, please go through tags before reading the novel. Don’t go around criticizing the plot of the novel.


  3. I want to call: Gu Hai, how could you do that?!! It’s so evil and disgusting, and devastating. This is how to kill love. (Not even sure if Bai Luo Yin is still alive…) He ruined the awakening love of Bai Luo Yin as well as his own, letting this evil overcome him.
    I really enjoyed this novel, but after such a horrible scene I’m put off from reading on…


  4. I cried a lot! RAPE IS NO JOKE AT ALL !!! If Yin Zi is going to forgive Da Hai, I don’t know any more. It’s so painful.


  5. All hope is gone is right! Cause I don’t even want them to be together after this! Wasn’t expecting that at all even tho it is standard for a lot of BL novels. I’m guessing they are gonna reconcile at some point cause the novel is like 200+ ch. But now I don’t even want them to😢 Gu Hai you bastard! I’m so upset. This novel really playing with my emotions


  6. i feel betrayed. i was so happy with this novel but now…
    that’s not love. my weak heart can’t handle how this hurts…


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