How AM I not GOOD?!
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“It’s done! Gu Hai, come get your car.”
After hearing his name being called, Gu Hai immediately got in his car and drove off without even waiting for Bai Luo Yin.
Bai Luo Yin followed closely behind him with his own car. When he made a U turn onto the road, Gu Hai’s car had already vanished. There was a massive traffic ahead and even worse, the light had also decided to turn red, making it nearly impossible to move even the slightest. Bai Luo Yin leaned his elbow against the car window. Counting from the car closest to his then straight ahead, there was none that was the same as his.
Fuck, the traffic is so severe, how did he fucking drive off?
Gu Hai was already over three kilometres away. The numbers of times he ignored and ran the red light, seize an opportunity, overtake another car, even he himself could not remember it clearly. All he heard were the sounds of car horns continuously ringing in various directions. His eyes swept towards the rearview mirror. Looking at his own face, it was as dark as the bottom of a pan. Worse, at this point, his heart was even darker than that blackened pan. He gripped the steering wheel so tight that the leather had about torn off.
I don’t understand. No matter how I look at it, I don’t understand. I know perfectly well that Bai Luo Yin is not that kind of person, but I still don’t understand? 
Behind, Bai Luo Yin continued to pick up his speed but still he couldn’t move much. As it turns out, there was also a strong feeling of being troubled and infuriated by the way that things have turned out crashing about in him
Being in this traffic jam is infuriating, but being misunderstood is even more infuriating. I’ve never seen someone so narrow-minded. I’ve already explained to him, yet he still fucking put on a sad face with me! Why don’t you use your stinking feet to think about it? if I really wanted to molest a girl, why would I pick this time, under such circumstance ah? Why would I do it on the street, right in front of your eyes?
After a while, the traffic wasn’t so severe anymore and his mood somehow eased down a bit with the slowness of the cars around him.
Bai Luo Yin began to ponder over things again from a different angle.
Actually, you can’t entirely blame Gu Hai. He was obediently waiting inside for you, yet you had to go out like that, and even did something so obvious, aren’t you deliberately making him misunderstand? It’s not like you don’t understand him. Even when he doesn’t have a person to be jealous over, he would try to find a target, you yourself know full well that for him anyone has the potential to be a rival. If he were to be overtaken with jealousy and actually found a love rival, he would probably eat his own heart out and silently die of anguish!
Also, what the hell is wrong with Yang Meng? Did he not have anything better to fucking do than to wear woman’s clothes? It’s fine if he wanted to wear it but why did he have to appear here and walk toward me? Even if he did appear before me, why did he change back to men’s clothes so quickly? It’s fine if you want to change back, but why don’t you fucking let me say that it’s you?
Then there’s You Qi, what the fuck are you doing? What kind of fucking idea is this? If you don’t like her then why don’t you just be upfront and tell her huh? You just had to find someone to act out this fucking play. It’s fine if you want to act out this play but you just had to fucking get a guy to do it. Even if you want to get a guy, why does it have to be Yang Meng of all people. Even if it’s Yang Meng, why did you have to fucking let me see you both……
After thinking it over and going in circles again and again yet never getting anywhere, Bai Luo Yin successfully eliminated himself and Gu Hai from the cause of the situation and place the fault on someone’s head.
In thinking this way, his head and heart felt a lot more at ease and, he wouldn’t have to anxiously chase after Gu Hai’s car.
As he was driving, he saw a deli shop at the roadside. He stopped his car and bought four pig’s trotters. Two days ago, Gu Hai had mumbled about wanting to eat pig’s trotters, but every time they returned to the shop after classes were dismissed, it was already sold out. Today is the weekend, so it was a great chance to get some and bring it back to lighten the mood a bit.
Once Gu Hai had already driven his car midway, he saw a sweet roasted chestnut shop just a bit up ahead. With a tightened chest and a heart that was beating relatively quicker than normal, he pondered for a slight moment then allowed his foot to press harder on the accelerator, guaranteeing that he would definitely drive pass that shop.
He hasn’t even driven a few feet yet before he suddenly pressed hard on the emergency brake in one quick motion, causing the body of the car to stop abruptly and rocked about for a while.
Gu Hai hesitated for a while, but still he got out of the car and let his foot, along with his heart take him to the roasted chestnut shop.
This was after all, his baby’s favorite.
Anger he can feel, but nonetheless he still must pamper and love him!
“Boss, give me three pounds.”
Gu Ha waited for a moment and saw a newspaper stand to the side. He carried the bag of chestnuts and walked over and asked the boss there: “Is《 Delta》 5 monthly magazines out yet?”
The boss nodded his head and passed a copy over to Gu Hai.
This was also a magazine that Bai Luo Yin likes.
Every month, like clockwork, Gu Hai would buy it for him, never once missing a single publication.
“You can read it for free again!”
Gu Hai mentally let out a cold snort. ‘Humph!’ before he carried the things and returned to the car.
When Bai Luo Yin arrived at the apartment, he went straight to the kitchen, he took the pig trotters and some other cooked food and placed it all into the cabinet. Then he opened the refrigerator for a look, from the sight of it, there wasn’t any large flat bread or steamed bun. It seems, today he will be eating rice.
Getting the rice, he poured a cup into the pot and took the initiative to rinse the rice before cooking it. Normally, Gu Hai would do all these daily things. Today, it’s already that time and that master hasn’t entered the kitchen yet. It was clear that he was preparing to quit his responsibilities.
Bad temper you have there…… Bai Luo Yin apprehensively mutters this sentence to himself.
If you don’t want to cook, then I’ll cook. After it’s cooked, don’t bothering eating it if you don’t like it!
Bai Luo Yin had just finished washing the rice properly and was just about to add water when Gu Hai walked in.
“You don’t have to do it, give it to me.”
With an expressionless face, he looked at Bai Luo Yin and stretched his hand out.
But Bai Luo Yin did not pass the rice pot over to him, instead he frankly said, “Let me cook it.”
“The rice you cook is too soft, it’s simply impossible to eat and it’s just like congee.”
After saying that, Gu Hai immediately snatched the rice pot.
Bai Luo Yin snorted coldly, “The rice you cook isn’t all that great either. It especially hard every time and always get stuck and rubs painfully against the teeth. When swallowed, it rubs painfully against the throat before entering the stomach. And when it’s digesting, it rubs around painfully in the stomach and worse when it comes out it rubs painfully against the intestines and out. It’s uncomfortable all around.”
Those string of words excited Gu Hai’s inner anger. His face ashen as if it was at the terminal stage of uremia frost.
“Don’t eat it if you don’t like it!” Gu Hai pushed Bai Luo Yin to the side, “Go wait over there!”
The kitchen door slammed shut in one go.
Tsk……You can’t even tell I was kidding? Boring!
With nothing better to do, Bai Luo Yin walked to the living room. The moment he sat down, he saw a plate of roasted chestnuts on the small coffee table. In a mere second, happiness immediately kissed his face a light shade of red before he quickly picked up a chestnut and put it in his mouth. While at it, he easily grabbed a magazine that was lying on the armrest of the sofa, by chance, it was the one he wanted to read. As a result, he ate and read happily. This simple life was quite beautiful and very gratifying.
When Gu Hai came out from the kitchen and saw Bai Luo Yin on the sofa with that delighted appearance, his complexion became even more unsightly.
It was obvious that he peeled those roasted chestnut for him, bought that magazine for him. He wanted to absolutely spoil and love him dearly……but in the end, when he saw this carefree scene in front of him, his heart, on the contrary, felt uneasy.
“Did I let you eat it? Did I let you read it huh?” Gu Hai’s face remained cold.
Bai Luo Yin answered back with three words, “I’m happy to.”
The flame smoldering in Gu Hai’s heart willfully emitted from within out of its own accord. But, he suppressed it making sure that it remained within, in this manner, he instead scorched his own soul black. He was after all unwilling to let it flare out and break lose.
Gu Hai himself does not feel annoyed, stupid or cowardly.
In dealing with a lover’s feelings, he had always upheld a promising principle, if he can let him do what he wants, then he will. If he can endure it, then he will. Someone that is brave enough to bear it, is a true man.
Then, his solemn and stirring body, like a bolt of lightning flashed back into the kitchen once again.
When they were eating, Gu Hai remained calm and collected the entire time and did not say anything. The atmosphere stifled Bai Luo Yin making it somewhat difficult for him to bear. Several times he wanted to open his mouth and say something but each time he was choked by Gu Hai’s furrowed brows. They were so tightly drawn together that the sharpness in his eyes were even more distinct.
Bai Luo Yin picked up one of the pig trotter, broke the sharp hoof end of it off and placed the remaining in Gu Hai’s bowl. This part was the best to eat.
Dwelling not so deep within his heart was pride.
Gu Hai was somewhat proud of himself.
As expected, ruling by means of virtue is effective. Actually, he is already aware of his own mistake, and took the initiative to be friendly as to express his goodwill to you.
Gu Hai continued to maintain his cold and indifferent manner. He did not say anything, nor did he smile. It was as if everything was as it should be and natural in all aspect. Even after he finished eating, he didn’t have any other impressions or thoughts to add to anything either.
After eating and resting for a moment, Bai Luo Yin asked Gu Hai: “Do you want to go work out?”
Gu Hai didn’t pay any attention to him.
Without any better option, Bai Luo Yin went to the gym by himself. He ran on the treadmill and waited. Waited for Gu Hai to come in. But even as he got off the treadmill and was dripping with sweat, Gu Hai still did not show his face.
Wiping his sweat, Bai Luo Yin left the room, feeling a bit unsettled.
His immediate action was to sought Gu Hai out, but he wasn’t where he was before.
After he walked around through all the rooms for a while, he finally discovered that Gu Hai was standing at the balcony.
Taking a quite glance at his solemn yet desolate silhouette, Bai Luo Yin went directly over toward the balcony and stood behind Gu Hai for a moment.
Although Gu Hai could sense his presence, he however did not turn his head around.
Very naturally, Bai Luo Yin gently placed his arms on Gu Hai’s shoulder. Then raising his head up just a tiny bit he rested his chin on one side of Gu Hai’s shoulder before pressing his entire weight down on his body.
“I’m a little cold.” Bai Luo Yin started to talk.
Those were undoubtedly foolish words!
His face was still braving beads of sweats yet he insisted that he is cold!
But, Gu Hai loves to hear these kinds of lies ah, especially when Bai Luo Yin’s hand was flirtatiously toying with the buttons on his collar. And even more seductive was the heated steam that emitted from his breath, it touched and kissed the inside of Gu Hai’s ear, tinting it a lovely shade of pink. Before long, Gu Hai’s heart had already started to sparkle with excitement.
Gu Hai pulled one of Bai Luo Yin’s arm forward before using the cigarette stub to burn his skin. Of course, it wasn’t extremely hot but Bai Luo Yin still subconsciously avoided it at once. Two strands of hair on his arm was shortened slightly, but it didn’t hurt. On the contrary it, the sensation was somewhat ticklish instead.
Gu Hai finally turned his body around. Before his eyes was Bai Luo Yin’s handsomely sculpted face, eyes crowded with languid movements; his bangs were soaked with sweats and hung loose, with charm and enticement drawing out each strand to perfection. After exercising, his skin had a healthy glow that glistened almost ethereally beneath the nearby light.
In the end, Gu Hai couldn’t endure it anymore.
His big hand suddenly pressed against Bai Luo Yin’s forehead and pushed him against the corner of the wall. Bai Luo Yin’s back met the wall with a silent thud.
“Missing a woman now?”
Bai Luo Yin knew already that the words Gu Hai spoke wouldn’t be anything good. Fortunately, he had prepared for it, so he wouldn’t be so angry.
“I already told you, that was Yang Meng.”
“I don’t care who he is. I don’t care if he’s a man or a woman. Didn’t you molest him?”
“You can say that.” Bai Luo Yin gritted his teeth and admitted with much difficulty.
Gu Hai gripped little Yin Zi.
With eyes seething of a cold demonic presence yet also teeming with an extremely soothing charm, he stared attentively at him.
“I can’t satisfy you?”
Why does those words sound so naughty? As if it was beckoning for a spanking from Bai Luo Yin once they escaped Gu Hai beautifully drawn lips.
Bai Luo Yin wanted to slap him in the face as to stop him before he went too far.
Modesty was indeed a word that was not appropriate to place on Gu Hai’s ability on the bed. His sex ability that is. Even though, Bai Luo Yin did not want to admit it.
He was still thinking when the lower half of his body suddenly became cold.
Bai Luo Yin lowered his head and looked, feeling dumbstruck.
“Fuck, this is the balcony. We’re out in the open. Are you fucking crazy?”
Without warning, Gu Hai turned Bai Luo Yin around and pressed him hard against the wall so that his back was now facing him. Without wasting anymore time, he pulled out his own little Hai Zi and smiled with a dark yet mischievous smirk.
“I want the Heavens to see and judge for me, how am I not good?”
Bai Luo Yin howls in anger, “Gu Hai, if you fucking dare to that here, believe it or not, I’m going to kick you from the eighteenth floor down right now?!!……”
 I don’t understand ah. – Gu Hai is referring to Bai Luo Yin’s behaviors toward the female Yang Meng.
 To eat one’s own heart
- To feel bitter anguish or grief.
- To be consumed by jealousy.
 uremia frost – a colloquial description for crystallized urea deposits that can be found on the skin of those affected by chronic kidney disease.
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