Chapter 19: You’re my BASTARD
“Us civilians are merely a tax-payers, every time we bought things, we just-“
Bai Han Qi raised his volume, then unexpectedly saw Bai Luo Yin coming around the corner. He quickly finished his conversation. “Ey, these kind of talks are futile anyway. The government’s policy won’t side with us civilians. I’m going back home to eat dinner. You guys can just continue talking without me.”
Bai Han Qi then walked to Bai Luo Yin’s side. “Son, going home already? Are you tired today? Here, let me help you with your bag.”
Bai Luo Yin smiled a rare smile .
“No, I’m not tired. Did you cook something?”
“I did. I’m just waiting for you to come home so we can eat together.”
Bai Luo Yin put his bag inside his room, then went straight to the kitchen. He smelled the food as soon as he opened the curtain.
“Today’s food, you weren’t the one who cooked it right?”
Bai Han Qi smiled shyly. “I didn’t do it. Your aunt Zhou cooked for us.”
“Aunt Zhou?” Bai Luo Yin wondered. “Which aunt Zhou?”
“That…. Xiao Zhou who owns that breakfast stall, your aunt Zhou. Everyday you eat the tofu that she made, you still don’t know that her last name is Zhou?”
“Oohh…~” Bai Luo Yin suddenly changed his tone.
“Every day you always eat her food for breakfast, and now you want to eat it for dinner too. Why don’t you just marry her? Then we could save money on breakfast too.”
“What nonsense!” Bai Han Qi hit Bai Luo Yin’s head with chopsticks. “She still has a husband.”
“It’s been so many years, yet he didn’t come home even once. Whether he is here or not, what’s the difference?”
“He does big business overseas; they can’t be working together in that small breakfast stall, right?”
Bai Luo Yin laughed, “He does big business but he still allow his wife work hard like that.”
“Okay, okay.” Bai Han Qi gave Bai Luo Yin a meaningful glance. “Your grandmother is coming, quick eat your food.”
Today, Bai Luo Yin’s grandmother wore a blue gown, and the collar was hollow. When Bai Luo Yin glanced at her collar, he suddenly remembered something and he laughed out loud.
When Grandmother Bai saw Bai Luo Yin laughing, she narrowed her eyes. “Ah~ Today my big turtle  is really happy~”
Bai Han Qi pointed with chopsticks and said, “Mom, he is your grandson. Grandson. Not a turtle.”
“Ah… right. My bastard .”
Bai Luo Yin was speechless.
At his side, Grandfather Bai laughed until he choked on his own food. Bai Luo Yin quickly took some tissue to clean up the mess in front of his grandfather, and also helped him to put on a bib, before starting to eat again.
They were eating happily when suddenly Bai Han Qi’s phone rang. After answering the call, Bai Han Qi handed the phone to Bai Luo Yin.
“Someone is looking for you, it’s a girl.”
Bai Luo Yin took the phone, then puzzled, he left the kitchen.. He had no idea who would call him on his father’s phone.
As Bai Luo Yin went outside the house, Grandma Bai stretched her neck, taking a stealthy a peek at Bai Luo Yin.
“Girfriend?” she quietly asked Bai Han Qi.
“What girlfriend? How old is he to have a girlfriend now?” Bai Han Qi put a piece of fish onto Grandma Bai’s plate, “Eat this.”
“Well… Before I die, I have to see my grandson get married.”
Bai Han Qi casually replied, “You’re still alive for the time being anyway.”
“Why did you say something like that?” Grandmother Bai hit the back of Bai Han Qi’s hand. Bai Han Qi just laughed.
Bai Luo Yin could hear the sound of heavy sobbing from the other side of the line. He didn’t even need to ask because he already knew who it was. He had a hunch that he should hang up immediately.
“Do not hang up.”
The other person seemed to read Bai Luo Yin’s mind. She stopped crying and started to speak in a firm tone, “If you hang up, I will come back to find you. I’m not joking.”
Bai Luo Yin calmed down a little and asked softly, “What’s the matter?”
“Why do you never read the emails I’ve sent to you? I’ve sent you messages, yet you never replied to me. I’m here overseas by myself, I don’t know anyone else. This is the time when you are supposed to accompany me. How can you be so heartless to me?”
“How do you know that I never read your messages?”
“I know, I just know it…” She started to cry again.
Bai Luo Yin gripped the phone. “Then you should’ve known that I’m a very decisive person. Break up is break up.”
The other person went silent for a moment before speaking, “Read the emails I’ve sent to you, read every single one. If you don’t do it, then I will call your father’s phone everyday until he’s tired.”
“No… Shi Hui…” Bai Luo Yin was angry. “Why did I never realize that you’re this unreasonable?”
“You forced me to become like this!”
Bai Luo Yin wanted to say something, but she had already hung up the phone.
“Son? Son? Bring that bottle of beer inside.”
Bai Luo Yin placed the phone inside his pocket and carried two bottles of beer into the house. His mood was gloomy. The taste of the food that was previously delicious had turned unappetizing/tasteless for Bai Luo Yin. In order to prevent his grandparents from seeing it, Bai Luo Yin forced himself to eat the food.
Before he slept, Bai Luo Yin turned on his computer and opened his mailbox. When he saw that he had 28 unread messages, he simply moved his mouse and scrolled over his inbox.
In order to simplify this matter and calm down s, Bai Luo Yin opened the last email.
“I knew you’d ignore the other emails and read this one. So in order to prevent you from being lazy, I’ve decided to write the content of the message in the sixth mail.”
Bai Luo Yin opened the sixth mail.
“I’m hurt. You actually only opened the last mail. But what I wanted to say isn’t actually here. If you want, you can open the tenth mail.”
Bai Luo Yin patiently opened the tenth mail, but the content was similar to the previous one, the purpose of which was to make Bai Luo Yin open the mail before this mail.
It went on and on, until he only had two unread mails left. Bai Luo Yin had went through so many emails yet he hadn’t seen anything important.
He wasn’t in the mood to play games anymore, so he immediately opened one of the two mails left.
“Ahh.. No more patience? I wanted you to open the other mail, but you opened this one instead. There is nothing here.”
Bai Luo Yin then opened the last mail.
“If you’ve read all those mails I’ve sent you, this means you actually don’t care about me, right? We…. Is it really over between us?”
The sadness and irritation in his heart disappeared at that moment. Instead, he felt helpless and empty. Bai Luo Yin looked inside his deepest heart and let his mind dwell on their social differences. The growing pressure slowly ate at his mind like a plague. Shi Hui was the daughter of a politician. She bought expensive dresses and ate meals that cost enough money to feed his family for two months. He used to disregard things like that… until Jiang Yuan reappeared again in his life, thoroughly exposing his father’s poor living conditions.
Bai Luo Yin loved his father so much. Although Bai Han Qi was sometimes silly and unreliable, Bai Luo Yin never despised him and he also never allowed other people to despise his father. However, he absolutely doesn’t want to be the second Bai Han Qi; there would be one day where he will stand up there, looking down at everyone else.
Those people who regarded them like little ants, he would draw out their bones, expose their rotten flesh to the world and let them receive the cruelest baptism.
 Here, Bai Luo Yin’s grandmother said the wrong word. She wanted to say 孙子 (shun zi: grandson) but she said 龟子 (gui zi: turtle) instead.
 After Bai Luo Yin’s father corrected her, she still mistakenly said 龟孙子 (gui shun zi: bastard), hence the title of this chapter.