The Feeling of Desperation
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In the blink of an eye, the sky was blanketed by a veil of darkness once again. Bai Luo Yin twisted his head around and gave Gu Hai a glance, “What should we do? Sit here and wait for rescue or take advantage of the daylight and rush back?”
“Rush back?” Gu Hai sneered, “With the surrounding area being overtaken by all these swamps, how are we going to get out? You had to pull me over, and now that I’m here, who is going to pull us?”
Bai Luo Yin let out a light cough, “There were many swamps before, and you still managed to get here. What difference does it make if there’s just one more swamp?”
“At that time, I was anxious so I had a lot of motivation to keep me going! But now…I don’t have any motivations. I only want to lay here.”
Even though Gu Hai said those words effortlessly as if it was something simple, in truth, his heart was tightening with a painful twinge. He, himself, can take any risks, but he absolutely cannot let Bai Luo Yin face any danger. It was already difficult enough to have found Bai Luo Yin safe and sound as he had wished for. If at this moment they were impatient and something were to happen on their way back, then that was not worth it!
Bai Luo Yin let out a sigh as he lied on the ground with both of his arms folded underneath his head—one of his legs was bent while the other stretched out with satisfaction. Even though he met with misfortune and became stranded, the pilot uniform nevertheless wrapped perfectly around his entire body, making him look rather stylish, handsome and even more enticing.
“Why are you looking at me?” Bai Luo Yin threw Gu Hai an arrogant glance.
The entire time, Gu Hai’s observant eyes were like x-rays, gazing through Bai Luo Yin’s clothes at what lied beneath. But he still acted decently. “Who’s looking at you? You truly believe you’re a piece of jade. Take a look at yourself, how many days haven’t you washed your face?”
Bai Luo Yin narrowed his eyes and faintly retorted with a question, “You fucking have the balls to ask me how many days haven’t I washed my face? You should actually take a look at how thick the mud covering your entire body is! If I were to stab you with a knife right now, it wouldn’t even reach your flesh!”
Seeing that the mud on his body had completely dried up, Gu Hai mischievously patted his clothes vigorously until their immediate surrounding was shrouded in a huge cloud of dry earthy dust. It only took seconds for Bai Luo Yin to choke and retreat one meter away.
When Bai Luo Yin approached the area again, Gu Hai was pouring water on his hands.
“Hey, can you not waste water so easily like that? It’s already hard enough to even get a drink and you dare use it to wash your hands!!”
To Bai Luo Yin’s surprise, Gu Hai stretched his hands over and emphatically wiped his face. Then, he poured more water and repeatedly wiped yet again.
The moment Gu Hai’s hand touched his face, Bai Luo Yin realized that this fool was not using the water to wash his own hands, but instead to clean his face for him—that made him fly into a fit of rage from the humiliation before he roared on the spot.
“Is my face really that dirty?!”
“It doesn’t feel as smooth as before.” Gu Hai said recklessly.
Bai Luo Yin stared blankly for a few seconds first then he dropped his butt down beneath a tree and pulled out a stick of cigarette from his bag before slowly taking a drag of it.
“Since you’re used to seeing the women in your company with soft and smooth skin, it’s only natural that my rough skin doesn’t appeal to you anymore.”
After hearing those words, Gu Hai also lit a cigarette and rest one of his arms on the tree trunk while narrowing his eyes to look Bai Luo Yin up and down.
“Yin Zi, you’ve been in the military for so many years now…you must have endured many hardships?”
Bai Luo Yin’s heart skipped a beat.
Bastard! You’re finally showing concerns about how my conditions were for the past few years?!
“The first two years was tiring, but it got much better after I stuck it out and gained recognition.”
Gu Hai flicked the ashes off the cigarette and asked again. “Then, your body should be really strong and rugged from all that training, right?”
“Not too bad,” said Bai Luo Yin rather modestly.
“Your muscles must be much more flexible compared to back then, right?”
Why is it the more I hear it, the stranger it sounds? Bai Luo Yin’s brows locked.
Moving closer, Gu Hai patted Bai Luo Yin’s thighs a couple of times. “Then, your body’s ability to endure should be quite strong, right?”
Bai Luo Yin’s gloomy eyes swept toward Gu Hai, “What exactly are you trying to say?”
With that, Gu Hai pressed his lips against Bai Luo Yin’s ears, allowing his hot breath to fan out. “Then, compared to eight years ago, you can endure being fucked even harder?”
Once those words unfurled along his ears, Bai Luo Yin was not angry or evade him, instead, he blew a mouthful of smoke right on Gu Hai’s face.
“That’s right, more than enough to fuck you.”
Gu Hai leaned in closer with a shady smile, “More than enough? Come, let me see how much more is more than enough…”
Meanwhile, his hand had quietly slithered down. Once he was successful in distracting him, he firmly grabbed Bai Luo Yin by the balls.57
Bai Shouzhang has been molested.
In just seconds, a terrifying slap akin to a violent thunderbolt charged at full speed, causing that duplicitous hand to quake before immediately retreating to the side. However, that did not deter the mood of a certain person even the slightest. Contrariwise, this type of force induced the hidden energy that had been long reserved in Gu Hai’s heart.
When night prevailed and shrouded everything in darkness, Gu Hai took out the parachute he had found earlier and spread it evenly on the ground. Then, he pulled out a double size sleeping bag and laid it down before the two simultaneously squeezed into the tight space together.
As the cold wind swept over them, Bai Luo Yin could not help but pull his neck back into hiding.
“Are you okay?” Gu Hai asked.
“I’m okay. These clothes can resist the cold,” Bai Luo Yin said as he gave Gu Hai a glance, “Actually…the clothes you’re wearing are quite thin.”
“The mud on my body can also resist the cold.”
Bai Luo Yin could not hold himself back and burst into laughter.
After so many years, Gu Hai could still see that Bai Luo Yin’s smile has yet to change. It was a breathtaking smile that could easily captive one’s heart and steal away one’s soul.
This time, Bai Luo Yin took the initiative to bind Gu Hai tightly in his arms.
Acting as if he was benefiting from this, Gu Hai pretended as if like he was wronged.58 “Don’t always try to get close to me. I’m already a man of status that can’t be dragged down since I have a whole family to feed. If my mother-in-law sees this, how am I going to explain to her?”
Bai Luo Yin snorted coldly, “Is your mother-in-law looking at the swamp?”
Gu Hai held back the smile tugging at the corner of his lip, “My mother-in-law has opened her third eye and can see far beyond.59
Bai Luo Yin kept quiet and stared wholeheartedly at Gu Hai—his dark eyes were like a vast and serene lake, deep and profound where the bottom was impossible to see. The moment Gu Hai’s gaze met his, a strong electric current sharply passed through his organs. Never before had he seen that kind of expression took solace in Bai Luo Yin’s gaze. At first, it seemed invasive but upon a closer look, he could sense the simplicity and tenderness lying at the depths, making it impossible for Gu Hai to fight the temptation.
When Gu Hai’s Adam’s apple slightly moved, Bai Luo Yin closed his eyes.
Just as Gu Hai’s lips were about to touch the Bai Luo Yin’s, he suddenly stopped just a millimeter from the corner of his lips.
He’s obviously trying to seduce me!!
Feeling as though his craving was not satisfied, Gu Hai tried to seduce Bai Luo Yin. This time, he used all the endurance he could mutter to stop himself from being moved and stayed still.
However, not even two minutes had passed when a faint snoring sound filtered the air.
Gu Hai’s breath immediately froze as a mouthful of blood galloped toward his throat.
Fuck! It’s just my imagination that he’s reciprocating my love when actually I’m the only one showering affection to an uninterested person!!
In the depth of the night, Gu Hai had yet to be ridden with sleepiness. He carefully moved Bai Luo Yin’s arm down from his shoulder and placed his arms on Bai Luo Yin’s back instead, embracing him tightly against his chest. As he looked at his sleeping form, a sense of sympathy took hold of him. He wondered how many times before had Bai Luo Yin slept in such a desolated and wild surrounding like this that made him able to sleep so soundly in a damp and cold place now.
Before long, Gu Hai finally kissed Bai Luo Yin’s cheeks.
Yin Zi, after I finish dealing with the mess back at home, I will definitely take good care of you.
In truth, Bai Luo Yin fell asleep after Gu Hai.
Midnight quietly slipped by—today was already the first day of the New Year. As someone who remained in the military base for years on end, he could still clearly remember what today was, but Gu Hai had forgotten.
Bai Luo Yin also kissed Gu Hai’s mud-stricken face.
Da Hai, now I am no longer afraid of anything. I can rely on my own ability to protect you…to protect the love once lost between us.
After eight years, Gu Wei Ting never expected that to encounter another restless year.
When he was first informed that Gu Hai went to search for Bai Luo Yin, Gu Wei Ting’s heart carried a strong hatred and unwillingness against it. He could not comprehend how their love could reignite again after being separated for eight long years. However, as the search prolonged for days on, the sullenness that once constricted his him was instead replaced by anxiety. Not only was there no news of Bai Luo Yin, but there were no words of Gu Hai’s whereabouts either.
Today marked the 6th of the New Year, eight full days since Bai Luo Yin had gone missing and six days since Gu Hai disappeared.
Generally speaking, once someone has gone missing for over seven days since an accident, the chances of survival is almost zero.
The accident from eight years ago was more than enough to make Gu Wei Ting completely terrified. Back then, when Bai Luo Yin had personally informed him that he wanted to enlist in the military, Gu Wei Ting no longer forced Gu Hai down this path as he was afraid that one day, he would run into danger again. At first, he believed by allowing Gu Hai to go into the business world, it would bring him peace and stability for the rest of his life.
In the end, he has once again tangled with death.
If it was ten or twenty years ago, Gu Wei Ting would still have the nerve to boast without shame: Isn’t he just a son? I’ll pretend I never had him!
But he had lost the courage and drive to say such words. Gu Hai’s car accident had caused him to abandon the idea of having a second child. Now, he only has this one bloodline.
Even though he has an impressive number of men under his command, if this one bloodline was broken, he would lose everything.
“General, we have found Gu Hai’s car.”
Gu Wei Ting hastily asked, “Where is he?”
“He…wasn’t in the car.”
Just as those words dispersed, Gu Wei Ting’s expression rapidly took a change for the worse until his hand that was holding onto the back of the chair violently ruptured with veins. Even when he sat down, the whole chair swayed.
Sun Jingwei walked over to console, “General, first let’s not lose our heads. Xiao Hai is physically fit and has great endurance. Even if he were to stay in the wilderness for a while, nothing major will happen to him. Not to mention, Xiao Hai has been more composed in his behaviors over the years. I can say with certainty that he adequately prepared everything before he left the car. Perhaps, he has already found Xiao Bai and the two kids are on their way home!”
“Composed my ass! Would he have driven to such a dangerous place if he was composed?”
Sun Jingwei made a comeback beneath his breath.
Even now, you still don’t understand what’s troubling your son’s heart…
Just as the room was shrouded with an intense atmosphere, someone suddenly entered and reported in.
“General, your family’s Er Shaoye60 is here.”
Once those words dropped, Gu Yang marched into the room and took off his sunglasses before looking the two men up and down with a cold and stern gaze.
“Did something happen?”
Gu Wei Ting remained calm and did not speak while Sun Jingwei pulled Gu Yang aside to explain the specifics of the situation.
Gu Yang’s expression slightly changed as he patted Sun Jingwei’s shoulder.
“I’ll go search.”
In just moments, Gu Yang’s silhouette faded away into the snow.
57 猴子偷桃: A monkey steals a peach. This refers to distracting an opponent with one hand and seizing his testicles with the other. Grabbing someone by the balls.
58 便宜還賣乖: This proverb means gained a favour or benefit and yet call it a disfavor and pretend being mistreated after gaining a favour, or refuses to admit that he has been benefiting and acts as if he got an unfair treatment.
59 開天眼: Translates to open eyes of the sky. Simply refers to an immortal who can see things that a mortal cannot see and usually that eye is a third eye in the middle of the forehead.
60 Er Shaoye – second young master (Gu Hai is already called ‘Shaoye’ – Young Master by soldiers so to show the difference, well just call Gu Yang, Er Shaoye)